How come your phone is off as well... So cornny have to chat through the blog... but Rohit and I are thru... He wanna have the break up...

I dun know wat to say and how to feel... I haven't really have a good cry... I wanted to cry to make mi feel better... to make mi feel that I should move on... but I'm shock that nothing comes out... the tears is going the other way... I dun know how come its like that... i dun want to be like that... I dun want to be the weak side of it... i dun want to give peep the impression that I cannot make it...

You know its hurts when i see that he is yearning to get over it... he is so happy that everything is over... i feel that he have already tarnish my last straw of hope... he have change all his profile to single and deleted all our photos... things just came hard on me... cos i dun see the storm coming... and i always have the faith in him that we can work it out like an adult just talk it out... Some people say i give him to much freedom til he is now out of hand... but actually i feel that he already want it this way when he is with his previous ex... its just that i'm like a new thing for him to experience it... or maybe that at that point he feel that he can give it another shot...

But nevertheless... he is a good chap... bad valentine... he can be 100% buddy for a friend... but for lovers, he only care about his feelings more than others... he just wants his way... it took me 10 months to notice it but i dun regret it thou... he just told me right in the face that he wants his singlhood... you can really see him begging for it le... it is that pain... initially i'm already to tear and drama... but when i hear that i just shut up... the tears just freeze... i can't do anithing... Rohit and I have talk about being friends... so dun worry... its just the matter of how long do i need to let go... as long as i can do it as cool as him... i'm ready to accept him...

Dont dont ask mi to be involve in anyone... i'm not ready... i can onli say i'll move on... I think serene is waiting for me to be with her lol i lost her number thou do let mi know if you got her number ... and my priority is friend... i want my friend back... i want to spend time with them... cos i know that when i'm in trouble they are always there... I'll try to adjust... I'm adaptable... this is wat i believe in... i wont let u see the weak side... even if i ever falter... i'll hide it... i will... believe me i'll do well ok... anithing you just call mi la... can't sleep and eat well since last night... i'll go shower and rush my audition... Maybe I can take this time to tone down my body should be quite efficient...